This is one that has had me thinking… three times in my life I have had to deal with sucides up close and personal… the first time was in the Air Force. I will not go into details, No need to replow that field. However there is somethings I took away from all the expereices

First of all is the bloody mess, emotional, physical… but mostly it is that an individuals sucide should never be seen as a ‘mere’ statistic. They are tragedies everytime.

My greatest wish is that I would not wake up early some morning releasing the breath just as I did when Torres put the gun to his head… some memories are still part of the mess.